Showing posts with label death. Show all posts
Showing posts with label death. Show all posts

Friday, May 31, 2013

This fear of dying

I do not know since when, but since a very long time I have developed this morbid fear of death. Since past few years, I have been getting this strong jolts that just some other day my husband would die.

And this fear of mine got really testified when my father died few months back. I know it sounds really eerie, but I was in fact getting those jittery feels of something wrong and bad things about to happen. And yeah they all in fact got true.

I have hardly coped up with that dreaded loss that now every other day I wake up to a feeling that some one near and dear is also about to leave me. Now whether that could be my husband, my sister, mother or my mother-in-law or my sister-in-law.

I remember how many times I have checked my mother and husband while they were sleeping for if they were really breathing.I know it all sounds too dramatic, today while writing all this, I too feel that, but this is what the truth is.

 I wish whom ever you love should never die....wish that was really possible....

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Long Wait and a plan to comeback

I know it has been ages that I have posted anything here. Those who know me personally know the reason for the same.

The last post was on the 7th of February, and on the 8th i.e., the very next day my father died.

It took me time to recover from that personal tragedy, though I am still not done with the process yet.

Currently  I am in Jodhpur fighting for the legal battle for the custody of one of his lands.

Any one who has dealt with anything legal would know how difficult it is.

Today it is the 4th day of my second time visit in the city for the same purpose within a time frame of 1 month.

Do not know what is going to happen tomorrow, but I thought of getting back to my habit of blogging to erase any sort of depressing thoughts from my mind.

Anyway this is just the start of events, the real legal battle will be of going through the process of trial of the murders of my late father.

It is indeed a long way to go...and I have just started.

Cheers to Blogging!!!