You have told me you suffer from the numbness in your legs. You describe it as the no-sensitivity feeling that makes you feel that you do not feel anything in your leg. Wow that sounds really interesting. Feeling the feel of non-feel. Your description of it made me realise that my heart feels exactly the same way. There is nothing in it right now. Just nothing. I have no feelings of pain, love, hatred, nothing and just absolutely nothing. Just no feelings at all. Do not know how this happened. Is it you who has made it like this with your series of fears that daunt upon me till this day. You know I love you and always always wanted you, but still you never felt that. May be I was not able to show you the exact depth of my love to you. Though I always thought I had bared myself all open to you. I do not know which part was still not visible to you. Now that you have gone far far away from me, I think you took away the feelings that belonged to you as well. I know I can never have you, but at least you could have had little pity on me and could have at least allowed me to have your feelings in my heart. You I will still not complain, the heart is yours, feelings are for you, and I am yours. You can have it all. But what I fear is that with the heart you also took some numbness along, I fear it has now travelled all over you. Sad...
